when you are depressed and lonely, it is seemingly much easier to analysis life objectively.
i have realised that at this moment, i have very few friends that i can rely on for help. not just help with homework, but people i can converse with to solve my problems, get some pepping up, etc. seriously, to be blatantly honest, the only people that i can rely on for help right now are alex, violet and stephanie. i don't mean to make anybody to feel like they are a lesser friend or anything, or at least not intentionally. however, right now i really do feel lonely. not just because alex isn't here. but because nobody is here. for me.
